my medulla oblongata

Monday, August 30, 2010

Romance -Ku Ingin Kamu

Demi semua yang aku jalani bersamamu
Kuingin kau jadi milikku
Kuingin kau disampingku

Tanpa dirimu ku hanya manusia tanpa cinta
Dan hanya dirimu yang bisa
Membawa surga dalam hatiku


Kuingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani…

Sentuhanmu
Bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
Yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
Dan membuatku tak kuasa

Di setiap arung gerak
Tersimpan di hati kecilku
Bahawa dirimu terindah untukku

Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernapas
Selama Tuhan masih mengizinkan
Kuingin selalu menjagamu

Sku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas




-sgt ske lagu ni.. lagu ni sgt best and ade msuk yg sgt mendalam. aq mencari lelaki(suami) mcm ni.. ceh.. insyaAllah..-

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah.. akhirnye , aq dh berjaya tempuh test2 yg sgt menghantui aq seminggu kblakangan ni... which is chem and phy. but more to physics... it's not that i don't like physics at all, but.. physics sometimes, driving me crazy, on how to solve those complicated formula. but still, i have to study in physics seriously. why am i here? all because of physics.. i don't like physics at all, at first.. but i know, this is the path given, so i have to go with the flow, although it doesn't make sense to know that we are learning something that we don't really like it.. i mean .. at all. how to study physics actually? is it based on learning process in class, or by doing a lot, A LOT of exercises? or by remembering those complicated formula that will suit the appropriate question? sigh. i tried those way.. but this 'stupidness' never comes to an end.. huhu but, i will never put a stop on my journey on how to make physics as fun as BEL120, and chemistry for sure. NEXT!!!!

today, my very best friend, shalida.. we call her DA-DA. she is having her night-day with me.. lol, means, she staying at my room.. nah, we everything are zero changed! we are totally, exactly the same of us .. nothing will change or transform us into another person. wana, da-da n feera.. we're always be together.. there's no one can ever separate us from being together. miss our moment together, when we were in secondary school. MJSC have tuaght a lot of lesson to us.. lesson of the season. huhuhu.. whatever it is.. i do really love you guys so much!! friends forever..

Monday, August 23, 2010

girls shouldn't agree with this...

salam, aq ade something untuk dikongsikan dgn para blogger... hurm, ape pndpt korunk(girls) if korunk ditinggalkan di tengah2 lebuh raya sorunk2 oleh ur own boyfriend??? hurm, aq ade satu cerita psl ni.... yg c girlfriend ni asek dok membebel je kerja die kt dlm kereta... then, boyfriend die ni pon dh fed up... terus die berhentikan kereta die kt tepi jalan....and suruh perempuan ni turun. ade ke patut??? well, actually scene ni dh byk berlaku dlm filem... and also in real life..so,agk biadap lelaki yg buat mcm tu.. sgt x gentle... at least ... suh pmpuan tu diam.. memg la pmpuan tu x kn diam mcm tu je.. tp at least, y not... tahan cket kemarahan, diam je.. jgn bukak mulut. pmpuan tu bila dh letih, die diam la... pmpuan pon ade perasaan gak.. yes, memg la lelaki pon ade prasaan marah gak, tp aq rse lelaki memg boleh fikir rasional... w'pon mereka hanya dikurniakan dgn 1 akal, tp mereka masih boleh fikir yg mne baik atau yg mne x... blog aq ni bukan untuk nk blame lelaki all the time, tp aq just wondering... where are you guys ?? memg terikir skg ni, if i were in that girl's shoes, ape yg aq akan buat??? dh la handphone x de coverage...sedih... tp, i tat's really happen, what would u do???

Sunday, August 22, 2010

unsatisfied........

salam, hr ni aq nk lagi ber'blogging disebabkan smlm access internet tidak begitu memuaskan. well, hr ni, hari aq dikejutkan dgn kelas bel. wo... kelas 6 jam straight! i thought tat will be a dificult + harsh time 4 me to counting every lil second to go back, and sleep. but then, after all everything run smoothly.. and i didn't felt sleepy.. Okay, not at all, but still.... i still can control my eyes.. LOL. we discussed something about dumping babies and abortion thing~~ well, actually i really want to voice all my evidence regarding these matter, but there's no chance.. i mean, yes i have tat chance to point it all.. but, just a lil bit chance to express my opinion. look, guys always blaming girls for some mistakes tat they had done together.. some of my classmates, keep pointing out to us (girls), why these all happened.. they keep blaming us about our dress-up.. yup, tat's may be the major point for them, but not or me. but in my point of view, guys should 'rendahkan pandangan'. means, they are not allowed to see those girls with unproper attire.. sometimes, i wondered, why is it every fasting month, people would like to say, 'hey, jaga pndangan, jgn tgk bnde2 yg x elok.' look, there are some common mistakes.. they should practice on their own word every month. not only in fasting month. i don't know what had happened to these world nowadays, but i am really confused right now... why must girls should be the one being blaming by others? where are the boys??? aren't they so well-perfect? please.. that are utterly absurd! no one's perfect.. so please, do not blame to one-side only..look at the both side.. then, u can judge and put on the blame..

Regretting.....

He is the one who comforted me...
He is the one who love to convinced me..
He is the one who gave me all kind of hope..
He is the one who taught me everything about love..
He is the one who sacrificed everything just to make me happy..
He is the one and the only one love me....

but now,

We are no longer to be together..
We are no longer to be a good friend..
We are totally separated..
We are totally no longer to be as ONE..
We are definitely cannot be together any longer...
We are supposedly to be friends ...

all this happened just because of..

My ego,
My unconsciousness,
My weirdness,
My zero attempts towards each others' feeling,
My stupid well-behaved,

looks like....

we are not meant to be together.... it's hurt, but life must go on...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

ramadhan...

salam, hr ni, aq nk cte sumthing psl bulan ramadhan.. hurm, sedih gak ble 1st day puase x dpt berbuka dgn family. tp x pe, seb aq still ade kwn aq, wana... heheh..she's my friend, my ver best friend. td, kitorunk plan nk p bukak pose kt jaya jusco(jj). tp, mlgnye, azan plak dh berkumandang, so, kitorunk bkak pose dpn bazar kt P.I
nina x hbes2 dok ckp yg die sgt SYAHDU bila mkn bubur lambuk, teringat kt umah... hahaha.. aq nk gelak pon de gak. tp tahan je la.. aq ngun wana dh settle mkn nasi kitorunk. then, wana ckp nk 'rase' bubur lambuk nina, akhirnye, bukan rse, tp dh tibai habes .. hahaha.. so, after dh mkn2, kitorunk g solat kt P.I, then, br kuar. kitorunk pon tgu la bas... then, entah sape tah pgl
aku-peah
el- timah
wana n nina aq x pasan depa pgl ape.. agak kesiotan, last2 aq ckp, nme ko AWANG kan? huhuhu.. nk dijadikan cerita, kitorunk smpi jj pukol 9 mlm. bas last kt jj tu kol 10. so, memg kne kejar mse la... yg c wana ni memg dh excited sgt2 nk beli notebook. ok, fine, kitorunk pon pergi la kdi laptop.. dh hbes usha mengusha, kitorunk pon pilih la notebook. nk install memg agak lme.. mke aq dh nk berpeluh2 tunggu. takot lambt n x sempat nk kejar bas, takot end up mcm hr tu, aq jln kaki dr perda ke kampus. mcm nk mati! so, dh kol 10.kitorunk jln la cpt2.. tepat2 je, bas smpi.. huh.. sgt lega... tu la 1st time aq teman kwn aq beli laptop. dn die pilih laptop tu sgt la sekejap. x smpi 10 minit, die dh ley wat keputusan laptop mne yg die nk beli. tabik spring gak lah kt die...

Saturday, August 7, 2010

kehidupan~~~

time kt skola dulu.. ckgu aq slalu kate yg life kt u ni sume nk kne cepat... tp bila aq dh ade kt u.. aq rse bnde dh terbalek... time aq kt mktb dulu.. life lagi cpat berbanding kt u... hum... susah nk diterangkan.. 1st time 1 kelas dgn lelaki agak menjengkelkan tgk prangai2 dorunk yg tersangat lah annoying.. but as time goes on... br aq dpt biasekan diri aq.. aq angga dorunk ni mcm kwn2 perempuan aq time kt merbok dulu.. time presentation plak.. huhuhu.. malu memg x yah ckp la.. tp aq buat je muke confident aq yg x leh bla tu.. luar tough, dlm ketaq kot... hahhaha.. tp, aq akui yg physics sgt tough.. knpe aq pilih engineering? aq pon x taw......